back to BDK you can't possibly lose w that attitude 30 years old is so fucking young man i wish you knew i'm not a sober guy now but i was when i got married at 30 and had a kid at 28 i was a drug addict and thought i was going to die your attitude of not being denied is your salvation but you have to find your own answers and make wise decisions then you are truly the master of your domain and no one gets to take that from you
First step is asking for help bdk. Don't be too proud to beg. Don't let the situation wreck your health. Get help. If I could I would. Don't allow yourself to believe you have to do it alone. Reach for your friends. Don't push them away out of fear or shame. You didn't fail. You were caught in a snare. Call for help. There's has to be a shepherd around somewhere. Talk to him.
if they don't show force it will never end farcetti has the police kneeling in front of the protesters so i guess its going to have to be the president and the military ventura blvd boarded up in preparation for the peaceful protesters in van nuys
The time for me needing help in terms of finances has passed. $5k in the bank may sound like pennies for most but that is massive for me. I could not tell you when, if ever, I have had $5k in a savings account. And it is going to continue to grow. I weathered the storm without begging. If you have to then you have to but I knew the people around me didn’t have much. Yes, everybody did more than I did. But it helped teach me the most important lesson I have ever learned and the proudest thing I have ever achieved in my life. It taught me to never pity myself. It was a long and hard lesson to learn but it will be hard-wired into my mind for the rest of my life. Liberating too. I am the help. Feel the furthest feelings of fear and shame. I am proud. I have goals and I do what I do to reach my goals. The path isn’t very clear at the moment and to say I do not do everything right would be an understatement but I am trying to figure this shit out. Your goddamn right I didn’t fail, I am on the path to winning. I can see all the examples of people around me who I thought where winning who aren’t winning and do not have great prospects of winning. I do not have shit figured out but I will keep trying until I do, whatever that means to me at any certain point in my life. Do not give a shit about possessions either. Really, shit doesn’t mean anything to me. I just want to win. My ultimate ending is on some lot of land out in a place like Montana. Not exactly some big baller type shit. Just need enough to have a gym and enough land to shoot guns at targets and shit. I have never shot a gun before but I want the freedom to do whatever the fuck I want, for the most part. I am the Sherpa who is here to guide the ones who are about to embark down that particular road.
Wish I was in your part of the state, I'd take you up on that offer. Just went to a range yesterday for the first time in about three decades. Time to get some defense for the homestead.
I have an uncle who is a big hunter. At one point he stopped hunting with a gun because he said it was "too easy", and he started hunting exclusively with a bow. I had my own bow as a kid and had good times shooting targets with it.
