this is both the best, yet worst, advice i’ve ever heard Reverend Jim Jones, David Koresh and Heaven’s Gate like this.
I am embarrassed with my previous post. I am embarrassed because I come off as a whiny bitch who is not in control of every decision I make. That was a really bad day for me and I needed a place to vent and I view this place as a haven for all expressions. Fact is I put myself in this position and I will map my way out. Currently creating the foundation of my plan to get out of this position and the first part was some honest talks, I feel like they went well. Have always been fairly responsible financially in terms of spending my money but TB's post made me have a desire for a plan. I like the idea of a plan. I don't feel sorry for myself nor do I feel defeated. Life is hard but you have to keep getting up after you fall down, no matter what. Truthfully, probably the best thing to happen to me, I have learned a lot of lessons.
I dont think your previous post was embarrassing at all. I dont think you came off as a whiny bitch at all. Your initial post was about reality not the feels. While it had something to do with how you feel it was not about how you feel. That previous post that you think was embarrassing is actually super empowering.
so after a saturday night w a couple of real micks from Ireland and a few bottles of whisky i was left w sunday decide to head out to the beach w my girl and we hit costco for supplies as we wonder a little in the store i'm standing at this bunch of clothes w $5 t shirts and whatever but i'm struck for a second by this little long haired dude digging for his size next to me suddenly it occurs to me i know this guy and i'm trying to figure out where it is i know him from then it hits me i used to see this guy rudy sarzo on the sunset strip playing w the early quiet riot and randy rhodes played w ozzy and whitesnake and i guess whoever else but he absolutely had a prolific career in music i don't think anyone else knew it was him and i didn't say a word to him although in retrospect i wish i had was curious to know how his life has gone and by all accounts he is a gracious and humble human being guess i might have thought i still smelled like jamesons idk kind of a trip when you think of all the things he's seen and had laid at his feet that he'd find himself digging through costco tshirts next to me lol
you know my first thought was look at this funky dude getting in the way of me and my $5 tshirt lol i looked him up and his net says he's around $16mil that makes sense for his career he doesn't need to shop like that and neither do i tbh but i respect the hell out of that he's been married to his wife for 27 years and seems to be one of the good guys he left ozzy after rhoads died because he couldn't stand osbourne being fucked up all the time didn't know that he offered to do tours or whatever until they found a new bassist but that was gracious and i guess ozzy punched him in the face at the US festival...what a dick
costco does have some pretty decent clothing when you need something to cover your nakedness and dont want to deal with whatever fashion fad is dominating the menswear lane of your favorite stores.